Drowning

I’m slowly drowning in a pool full of people and not a single person notices the life slowly slipping from my body. The light in my eyes fading away, the flame in my soul smothered to ashes, and the gears in my mind grinding to a halt. And no one sees me. Am I so...

Back At It

After a long, long, long break from blogging, I'm finally back at it. Since about February of this year, I had been struggling with various medical problems and keeping up with a blog was just becoming too much. That didn't stop me from continuing to write though and I'm happy to announce that I have...

Medication Sensitivity

Let me give y'all a run down of my life the past month or so. Started when I thought my antidepressant stopped working because I was starting to see the beginning signs of the depression whirlwind about to sweep through my life. As those crippling symptoms of depression continued to infiltrate my life, I began...

10 Self Care Ideas For When I Don’t Want To Do Anything

The world feels like it’s spinning so fast and I’m stuck on slow motion. I’m laying in my bed, looking at the ceiling and wondering why I feel so horrible. My back starts to ache from laying on it, but moving a single muscle seems like too much energy to exert. It’s in moments like...

Sovereignty

Sovereignty By A.M.Morais I’m not your prisoner any longer Your unforgiving grip around my throat No longer steals the oxygen from my brain Your silky smooth talking blindfold No longer pins me down to your wishes Your razor sharp serpent tongue No longer shreds my soul to pieces Your energy siphoning dark aura No longer...

How Does Time Heal?

I've been told, "Time heals all," but does it really? How many years does it take to heal a completely shattered being? When every inch of your soul has been pulverize into dusty ground? Because, for me, it's been eight long years and that pain still hurts. It still creeps up through my feet, puts...

The Year of Me: April Update

So, here we are in April - four months into my "year of me" and I felt you all needed an update. I also feel updates will help me hold myself accountable for my progress. So, to begin, I have definitely fallen off the band wagon resulting in (or maybe because of?) a miserable April....

Eidolon

Eidolon By A.M.Morais . Seeping through the seams between reality and fantasy Smog congests the psyche Deadened nerves fail to feel the clacking of the keys Underneath calloused fingertips The essence of stale dirt lingers in the stagnant air All is still except for the slow thumping of a heartbeat Inside a weakened shell of...

This or That?

Do you prefer Coke or Pepsi? Coffee or tea? Chocolate or vanilla? Pancakes or waffles? For me personally, I prefer Pepsi, coffee, vanilla, and waffles. I'm sure many of you will have answers different than mine, but let's move on to my next question. Do you prefer to use medication or no medication to treat mental illness?

Ruination

Trigger warning: sexual assault